Goodness! Has it really been almost 2 months since my last blog? It really does seem like time flies.
Justin and I officially enrolled Amanda in pre-school. Starting in the fall she will be attending Lakeside WEEschool! Her want to go to school varies on different days. Some days she is really excited, while others she is pensive and says she doesn't want to go. I guess we will see how that works out.
Summer is offically here. I know because we have already been to the pool twice and the lake once! There are two pools in Pecan Plantation, where we live, and we just recenlty went to the one at the club house. Amanda really enjoyed that one because she can touch the bottom of the shallow end. She was even brave enough not to wear her life jacket while swimming!
We found ourselves leaving Memorial Day for Vegas. I had been once, but stayed away from the strip. This time we stayed at Treasure Island. We took in "Mystere" at Treasure Island and "Absinthe" at Caesars Palace. I would highly reccomend both shows...but if you have to choose just one....see "Absinthe" (or "O" at the Bellagio, which we didn't see this time) "Absinthe" is a raunchy, burlesque type circus show with acrobats, skaters and stunts! It was a good show...but totally not what I expected. We also rented a car which was lovely. It really saved or legs by not having to walk so much. I met Lady Gaga and Judy Garland too! Not really. We went to the wax muesuem, saw the Hangover II (I do not reccomend it), and scoped out the Hoover Dam. This is an AMAZING feat of engineering. We also got to see the new Hoover Dam bypass bridge which is another amazing feat of engineering. All-in-all it was a great time. I only lost $10.00 and that was playing Keno my first time.
I also had my first tap recital also since the last time I blogged. It was quite scary I must admit. I messed up a few times, but I feel that was nerves more than not knowing my routine. I can spin a flag blindfolded...but tapping isn't something that comes natural.
I started my first Divorce Care class yesterday too. I really thought about not going, but realized yesterday that this may just be the thing I need to help with my healing process. About halfway through I told one of our leaders that I didn't think I deserved to be there and she asked why. I told her that since I was already in a relationship (something they tell you not to do), not a member of a church (although I think the Lord is leading me to a new church home), and I was the divorcer, I felt as though I didn't have the right to be there. She told me that was nonsense and we discussed my story. It was a little nerve racking to share....but I was open and honest. I have realized that I may need more healing than I know. More updates as that goes along.
I also have started writing. I told you about my book a few blogs ago, but I have started writing out letters to those that have been an important part of my life, as well as those that have decided that they didn't want to be a part of my life after my divorce was final. I am finding that is is a great catharsis for me to get out all of these feelings and words that have been stored up for so long. I know these words will never make it to these people, but it helps me to heal also.
Amanda keeps growing and learning and I am amazed at just how much her small mind retains. She is in the "Why" stage now. She follows every answer with "Why?" or "How Come?" or some form of a question that will allow her to expand her knowledge base. She is so amazing to me. I look at her and just marvel at the awesomeness that God has done for us by giving us this little girl. She has a plaque above her bed that says: "Heaven sent, handle with care." There isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank God for putting this little being into our lives. I am lucky that Justin and I decided to have a child. I don't know what I would do without her.
