For whatever reason, this week has been pretty tough. It all started when I had to drop-off Amanda for her 4 days with Justin. We had to go to Lowes and in the middle of the paint aisle I cried. We had dinner and I vented and on the way home I cried and cried. I really thought I was moving past all of these feelings from the divorce, but I guess I haven't. So, I had a good cry. I asked Mike a lot of questions...ones of which he can't answer. But, if I didn't ask them to someone I was going to burst. I signed up for a Divorce Care class a few months ago and I was thinking that I needed to call the lady back and tell her that I wasn't going to come after all because I was over it. I see now I am not and really think I could use the class. How sad.
Monday and Tuesday were okay. I have just missed Amanda these past few days. I always do, but it seems as though this week has been particularly hard for whatever reason.
Today was tough because I had a very long and complicated cost basis project I had to work on and the further I got into the project the more I just wanted to cry.
I always feel so bad for days or weeks like this. I say that because in comparison to some, I have a particularly fabulous life. But, I guess we are all entitled to our days in the dump, or in my case, a week.
However, Amanda comes home tomorrow and I am looking to a wonderful weekend with her. I think we are going to go pick strawberries at Fall Creek Farms, take in the zoo and some shopping on Saturday and spend the day at my parents Sunday. I am really looking forward to having her back.
There.....that perked up my week.....a lot!
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